Just came home not long ago from supper with Karen because she’s staying over somewhere in the area tonight. Really enjoyed the time of fellowship with this friend! Talked about lots of stuff from family to friends to church. I appreciate times like that when you can just be sharing about your life with a friend, and just enjoy spending time to hear from each other.
Thankful for the time we had just now. It always feels good to be able to share openly and honestly, and being able to take other person’s words for it.
And it seems like that particular kopitiam has become one of the places that I hang out and build friendships with people in. haha maybe that helps to explain why so far, most of my close friends (not that I have a lot actually lol) are the ones that stay in the region. Guess it’s always good to have somewhere that opens till late to accommodate extended fellowship like that.
Another joy! Just accepted a friend request on Facebook from one of the deaf staff working in the hotel we stayed in when we were in Bohol. Communicated with a few of them via sign language, and was exhilarated when I was able to do so (Take my words for it when I say exhilarated, because how often does WX use big words?) :D Decided to find out a little more about him so I explored his page a little (my stand is, it’s not considered stalking if I’m just looking through what you’ve placed on FB). And I found this:
l am so happy because same deafs l am always meet my new friends that can hear l surprise hearing people make sign language they want to communicate with me l am happy feel me important as like them…thank you so much… : )
I know the English isn’t exactly easy to interpret. But from what I’ve gathered in his write-up about who he is, he didn’t like being deaf. He’s now able to accept that because he has found friends who are deaf as well, and he can communicate with them. And in what I’ve quoted above, he feels happy and surprised whenever people sign to him because it means that they want to communicate to him. It makes him feel important.
Think this warms my heart. It also reaffirms my decision to pick up and sign language and practise it from time to time. It lets me know that there is a value in doing so – it’s no longer just a thought/belief that they will be happy when someone converses with them in sign language, but these are the words that came from someone who’s deaf. What he wrote lets me know that he feels valued when we sign to him. Glad it made a difference :)
Last but definitely not the least, trust issues have been on my mind over the past few days. Well, mainly because one of my friends have been talking about that on Instagram and also partly because of the drama that took place in another friend’s life. It seems like the friend who’s been talking about it has given up trust in all of her classmates, and that includes me :( And today I was just reminded of how I was tempted once again to give up on trusting people when I found out about the drama in the other friend’s life.
Trust has been a big thing in my life. One belief I’ve always held is that we should not over-promise. And I feel a lot about that especially when it comes to kids – I really don’t like it when people promise kids stuff just to bluff them to do something. Experienced broken promises as a kid and I hated it, so I feel really strongly about this. Oh talking about broken promises, haha the first time I ever got a proper pass in my secondary school English composition writing and actually topped the cohort for it was at the end of Sec 3 when I wrote an essay titled A Broken Promise. Another thing about me and trust is that sometimes, I have measures set in place to provide me with a form of defence should I be betrayed one day. When we discussed about the mean world syndrome (having the idea that people are unkind and can harm you) in class, I saw that in myself.
But anyway, so I was just thinking today about how my friend has lost trust in everyone else. And I realised that perhaps, the only reason why I am still able to trust people today (though that trust is comparably lesser than what others have in relating to people), is because of God. It’s true that it takes time for people to gain my trust, but it’s possible. Because I know God, I know His Sovereignty. Because I know God, I know how important people are to Him. Because I know God, I know He wants me to love them and that involves trusting them. Because I know God, I can trust Him with my friendships.
Thankful for God being in my life because as long as He is here, there will never be a day I run out of love, hope and trust. Even if the world should fail, I know that I will still find these in Him.