Today, I am surer of my victory in Christ! No, the situation remains the same but I have joy in my heart this time round.
Said to God before service yesterday, I would only send out that text if You clearly say so. There’s been so many times I thought I heard God say “Go”, but the outcome turned out to be disappointing. In those moments, I would grumble against God, “You told me to go and You didn’t even back me up.” So yesterday I told God, I’m not going to do it unless You clearly say so, lest it’s just me thinking what’s good to do and be disappointed again.
At service yesterday, I’m thankful for what Pastor Jeff preached. It was on forgiveness, Matthew 5:23-24, and how God doesn’t just care about our relationship with Him but that He wants us to have good horizontal relationship with our family, our best friends, and whoever He has placed in our lives. These were my motivation in seeking to resolve the conflict.
I made a decision in my heart last night, to send out the text as an act of obedience, rather than to expect a favourable response. Well I haven’t received any response, but still find joy within me. Here, it’s no longer just about the friend and I, but it is about God and I. No longer just about what I feel like (not) doing but simply because this pleases Him. This victory I have isn’t about a favourable response, but the victory lies in obeying and having my joy remain in Christ regardless of the outcome.
I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing ’cause You pick me up
Sing ’cause You’re there
I can sing ’cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I’ll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne