Had quite a busy day actually. Woke up at 6am to prepare for worship practice and in the end, I only managed to practise two songs before I left the house. Was unexpectedly busy at work today as well – okay not busy, but just had things here and there and before I knew it, it was time to knock off. I didn’t even have time to feel tired from getting only 5.5 hours of sleep from the previous night. Rushed off from OT to church after that so that I could make use of the remaining 1 hour to practise as many songs as possible. I was really unprepared for tonight’s practice. Tired too.
As we were about to start the worship practice proper, I asked of a few things from God. I asked to be refreshed, in ways that allows me to worship God, in ways that allows me to take my mind off things that I need not be thinking about, in ways that would allow me to walk out of the practice feeling thankful that I was there. Just like how I encountered God the very first time I served in a band, I wanted to encounter God in a similarly refreshing way too. No idea how I was to play the songs when I didn’t have time to prepare for them too, so I gave that over to Him as well.
My first thanksgiving for the night would be that Dennis was actually there. He just found out on his own today that I was playing for service this week as well and so he made the trip down to disciple me. I think I usually feel really helpless during practices because I don’t know what I’m doing and whether I should be doing something else, so yes thank God he was there. It really made me feel a lot more certain about what I was doing, because I could ask him what I didn’t know, and because he would give me feedback after listening to what I just played. Thankful for such guidance, really.
What was awkward though, was when Yvonne told him about the fan club that Cass came up with. Cass started a Dennis fan club because I shared with her how he’s been making tutorial videos to teach me. Point is, Cass was the one who started the fan club and pulled me in. So when Yvonne saw him sitting beside me before practice started today, she laughed and then told him about the fan club. Man, that felt kinda awkward >.< As much as I’m really thankful to have a shifu like him and I really think he’s excellent in his craft, it still felt a little awkward to have to express that in front of him, through Yvonne.
Anyway, second thanksgiving of the night is that I really felt refreshed after the whole practice. Or maybe, I should say, I’m thankful for how smoothly everything turned out, or at least much better than what I had imagined it to be. I had imagined myself to be so very stuck and clueless to even how the dynamics were supposed to be, but it turned out pretty well. Managed to learn certain parts on the spot from Dennis and executed them, which I think is quite a miracle. Usually, I would need some time practising on my own before I pick up something new.
So yes, practice turned out unusually peaceful for me. At the same time, I felt like I could worship as well, rather than just caring about technicalities only. Left the hall feeling really refreshed, like I was distracted from my tiredness, like I could go on worshiping for another hour or so.
Last but not least, definitely, was a good time catching up with Janice on the way home. Haven’t talked to her properly since the exams period I think. Talked to her about doctrinal issues, my mini #achievementunlocked moment at work today, her ministry, etc. Train reached my destination a little too quickly today. I like this feeling though, because time flies whenever we are having fun, isn’t it? Had a good time with her :)
For the last time, uni service would be on level 8. For the last time, I’ll be with them as part of the uni congregation. For the last time, I’ll be serving on the stage on level 8, in a uni service. When I thought about these at the end of practice today, I felt privileged to be able to serve on this coming Saturday. As I recount, this stage has been a place where I’ve struggled much with God, grown out of my insecurities and perhaps in other aspects of my character, experienced love and support from the team and friends because they knew my struggles. It’s my privilege to be able to play in this last uni service on level 8. Thank You, God.
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